Imagine: Answers from Within

Sometimes I think that if I just ask enough people the right
questions, I'll get the answers I need.

And most of the time, that works. I can ask a specialist about a
specific question that baffles me at work. I can get a second opinion
from another doctor. I can ask "where am I spending my money?" and
come up with a budget.

Ask, investigate, plan, do, revise. That's generally how I live my
life. There's a series of problems to be solved, and every day leads
me one step closer to things more easily falling into place. And
there is a large portion of the world that works this way.

But interestingly, none of that large portion is, to me at this
moment, interesting in the least. Because they're all minor
problems. The big problems aren't really problems - they're questions
- and the answers aren't found from outside. They're found from within.

Why do I love someone? I can ask all sorts of experts, but even if I
had it explained, the answer wouldn't satisfy. Where do I get my
strength from? How do I live life? Why am I happy? Why am I not?
Why is it that this world seems to operate by a set of principles...
and I don't get to choose them?

Those answers are ones I must answer by myself. Alone. Others may
have opinions, but that is all they are. What I need is convictions -
firm beliefs that don't change based on circumstance, values that hold
true to the real way this world works.