and the light flashes as bright as a polaroid.

I'm in an interesting place in my life. A place I never thought I would be in a thousand years but a place I need to be in non-the-less. I've been off work this whole week, I live on my own now in my grandma's basement suite as most know. I always knew that when I moved here there was a reason why I needed to move here but I just couldn't put my finger on it. Turns out this week is one of the reasons why I needed to move here. I've been learning things about myself this week that are almost profound. I don't really know how to even put it into words. Things are going very well! I feel like I'm exactly where I need to be in life right now. All the boys from the band are out of town to hawaii and BC. Tim is back tomorrow so I will have to make plans to see him this weekend but what a week its been. I would have never expected this like I say in 1000 years. Its amazing when your almost completely in aloneness and left with your thoughts what happens. And what kind of post would this be if I didn't talk about the thoughts that aren't mine but are there anyways. God's been paying frequent visits to me in the past week in unexpected ways and I'm so thankful. 
I realized that tonight was possibly the last chance I had to walk the park in above 20 degree weather. It was amazing tonight as the sun was setting to see the colors of the leaves on the trees, listening to chris walla on the ipod. Its almost like that album was made just for me at that exact moment in time. I had an aura about me as I walked, I knew it was on my face, people were looking at me. I can always tell when I'm exactly where I need to be in my life because random people will look at me and wonder what I'm going through because I guess I look happy. Its a happiness that has no explanation. When I started the year I said to myself that I wanted to find my inner peace and my inner self. Its not something that can be accomplished in a year but rather a lifetime but I feel like this year is certainly the starting point to which I will never forget about for as long as I live. This year is turning out to be one that I will look back on and be able to say that this year changed my life for the better.

Also sitting in the apartment today I got plans in my head to get another table for under the big window in the living room. I want to get a record player. Maybe even an old school looking one, with a great selection of vinyl. Then when more days like this happen, I can sit and read or write while sipping tea and listening to the best music a guy could ever want.