Wars! I have my tylenol, lozenges, water, and even Aunt Sandra's
tried and tested flu remedy surrounding me (it's mostly citrus and
garlic. It has indeed been tried and found effective in repelling
vampires - as to the flu, well, the jury's still out).
Now being sick is a real bummer. What's even worse is being sick four
days before your wedding. There was supposed to be lots of time to
wrap up all the loose ends, get last minute planning done, and prepare
everything that needs preparing. Now, I'm under strict bed rest
orders, my fiancee is running around like crazy, and the rest of the
wedding party is trying to make up for the shortfall (oh, except one
of the bridesmaids - did I mention that she's recovering from hurting
her ankle in a nice innocent picnic get together for our friends?).
The worst part about this is that I want to lead. I want to take
other people's burdens, get stuff done, stay up late if necessary, and
make sure that everything goes super smoothly. Now, not only am I not
active in doing that, I'm actually causing people to worry about me.
I feel like I'm abandoning people in their hour of need.
So what does this tell me? Well, the simple part is that I really
need to trust in the Lord. If this thing doesn't happen without me at
the reigns, it obviously hasn't been fully surrendered. Maybe this is
a chance for some of our out of town guests to put aside animosity,
roll up their sleeves, and work towards a common goal. Maybe this is
the Lord's way of preparing me in the way I've avoided until now -
being a humble husband.
I've done what I can, and now it's up to the Lord. May HE lead the
way - because, after all, this marriage really is about him.
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